alright so boys are not quite as confusing now as they were two days ago. we've figured this all out. or at least enough to not drive me insane at any rate. so yes. we're all good.
and i'm terrified to be starting university. I'M NOT READY FOR THIS!!!!!! I CAN'T DO IT!!!!! I'M GOING TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN AND START TO CRY AND FALL ALL APART!!!!!!! *hyperventalating* oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear...... ok. slightly calmer now.
just got back from St. Albert. had quite a lovely time even though there was a lot of waiting involved. it rained pretty much the entire drive back home. which was unfotunate, but at least there were no tornadoes or floods or earthquakes or fires. there was an accident or something, but it was all cleaned up by the time we got around to it. we also did a lot of walking in St. Albert. a couple hours worth the one night. and for some reason my legs, both of them mind you, decided to die on me. it was odd. the inside of my hip joints both have developed arthritis it would appear, or something to that extent. they hurt so much. they're even stiff now, the day after. but i'll live i suppose. one should hope so anyway.