I AM NEVER GOING AWAY AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG!!!!!!!!!! i coach gymnastics you see, and i'm in a play at school that we're competing in a drama festival which means that i will be missing work and IT IS SO HARD TO FIND SUBS!!!!!!!!! this is how it goes. on the first friday i'm away i have Joya taking both my classes. the next day (saturday) i have Justin taking my two morning classes, then Nico taking the two afternoon classes. friday next week i have Cathy taking the first class and Lorelei taking the second one. the next day i have Nico taking my two morning classes and Natalie taking the two afternoon ones. and to top it all off i have to write LESSON PLANS!! i'm going insane. i think i really might just crack up. like i said. i am never going away again.
unfortunately i'll be gone in june for a cousins wedding. i think i shall have to start looking for subs now.

wonderful! you can delete them. well i feel better now.

well it's back to school tomorrow. my Easter break has come and gone and left me confused in its wake. i have no idea where the time went. i really don't. i didn't do anything. strange how that happens. it's the same with the week when my violin lesson comes up. i plan to practice but surely, every monday comes and i've done nothing the entire week. i don't understand it. i think i'm stuck in some sort of time vortex or something where time never behaves properly and you never get anything done.
i do still have a boatload of chocolate left which is good tho. well.. perhaps not a boatload, but a basketload at least which is nearly as good. i eat it slowly anyway. unless i've had a bad day. then it goes much faster. i do have to say that i am dissapointed in this one kind of chocolate i got. it's got a peanut butter top, chocolate bottom and marshmallow cream (althought not the really good kind) in the middle. but they've screwed them up somehow in the course of a year. i can't believe i'm saying this, but they are actually too sweet. they're kind of gross actually. i think it's the marshmallow cream. yup. that's definitely it. it doesn't even taste like marshmallows. some sort of edible oil product i'm sure. that's what the entire world is made of now it seems.
i wonder if you can delete blogs. i have two others that i don't care for much now. not on this thing, these ones are all fine, but a seperate blog entirely. two sorry. but yes. i've got nothing more to add to them so i don't particularly care anymore. hmm. i think i shall go and see what i can do about getting rid of them.

spiderman has failed me.

stupid stupid stupid. this thing is dumb. it just erased all of the wonderful things that i had written for you. and i really don't feel like re-writing them so your loss i suppose. it wasn't all that important, but somewhat interesting at least. oh well. i hate it when e mails do that to you too. because those actually have a purpose. then you really do have to write them all over again. it's especially annoying once you've got near 2 pages written. oy.
oy is a good word. more people should use it. or perhaps they shouldn't. it is somewhat my word. so is prat. i love that word. one day i shall move to britain where i won't be alone in its usage.
i feel pudgy at the moment. too much juice. eugh.
you know you have a rather boring life when your blogs bore even yourself. that is me. i really should do something, but i'm in a state of boredom where i would rather not do anything to remedy the situation.
i swept today. and tromped across a field to give a pregnant horse some oats, and jumped on the trampoline, and eventually will have to fill a water trough. stupid horses. they are useless. cows. riding lawnmowers (yes i thought of that one myself :> i don't really see why my mother likes them so very much. she calls them cows every so often too. it's actually quite funny. it's only because she grew up on a farm with cows but no horses. i like horses better than cows though. cows are just plain dumb and smelly. yick.
i should really get cracking on my lines. i'm in 2 plays and i used to know all of my lines, but then i got switched to a bigger part so i don't know those ones yet. it's great. in the one i have a 2 page monologue. hooray!! oy. well i'm off.

Easter break can be very boring. i should probably call someone and go do something, but i don't really feel like it. i know. i'm sad. back to the hermit bit i suppose. this is the problem when you have your break at a different time than all the people you know who don't go to your school. humph. stupid school boards.
i had to go and march all across the horse pasture today in search of our very pregnant horse in order to give her some oats. if you want an adrenaline rush take a bucket full of oats into a field with 10 horses and only let ONE of them eat the stupid oats. and to make things more interesting, make sure that that ONE horse is the farthest from you. nuthin like simultaneously chasing away 9 1000+ pound animals!! hoowee! and then of course you get to walk all the way back. it's rather tiring. you have NO idea how far away those horses can go! we need a quad. plus horses take a REALLY long time to eat oats, or at least this one does. so then of course you're standing there bored out of your mind for about 20 minutes while the stupid cow takes her sweet time to finish the things and you're still chasing off a few horses because some of them just don't get the hint that the oats are not for them. plus you have ants crawling all over your feet. and me being against all shoes of any king wore sandals. i hate ants. i really do.
i'm going to be making cheese cookies soon. they're quite yummy. yummmmmm....
i'm also falling for someone with blue hair. he shall forever be known as the BHD (blue-haired dude). he has wonderful eyes. i had a dream about him a while ago. we were at school, walking down the halls and being all buddy-buddy like. i can't really describe it but i know what i'm talking about so you'll just have to interpret this as you see fit. anyway becuase i dreampt about him nothing will come of anything most likely because you see all the guys that i have ever liked, any of them that i had a dream about, nothing ever happened between us. which is very sad because he has blue hair and that's wonderful. but perhaps i could be wrong. i don't know. dream or no dream i can still ogle and drool.

well then. i haven't been here for a while, but well. busy busy busy. i'm on spring (Easter) break at the moment tra la la. i thought it was tuesday today and was very sad because my spring break would almost be over, but it's only monday so everything is alright and wonderful in the world today.
it was SOOOOOOOO hot today! the pants that i 'edited' (made shorter) were in the wash and i don't actually own any shorts that i would wear anywhere other than my own private backyard so i actually wore a dress today. in public! i know!! it's very cute though. so it was alright although i don't think it will happen all that often. there's too much of a chance to flash people and since i never wear dresses or skirts of any kind there's an even bigger potential for it to happen beause i'm not used to it. i'm sorry, but being a gymnast, limbs bend much easier and sometimes you just have to sit like a guy.
it was Easter last sunday. did i say that already? you probably already knew but that's just fine. anyway. diabetic chocolate is a rip. i'm not actually sure if it's actually diabetic chocolate, but it's sugarfree at any rate. yea. no. it does NOT make a difference. it's got just as many carbs and sometimes even more than real chocolate. give me the good stuff i say. it tastes fine, but definitely not worth the elevated price.
the cats are quite strange here. i believe it might be the water. i also drink the water. that might just explain a few things. well i believe that my mother wants me off. she probably needs the phone although in my opinion she spends much too much time talking to people. i don't think she ever outgrew her teenage habits. i on the other hand have yet to develop them. perhaps this is why i wouldn't mind being a hermit. except for a less comfortable bed and much more grass in my diet it'd be about the same.

life certainly takes some interesting turns. for instance, i have decided to stop writing properly in these things, so no more capitals and whatnot. this particular development isn't anything life changing, but i felt compelled to explain my lack of proper syntax. i also found out last monday that i have type 1 diabetes (insulin dependent). now there's a life changing event. i tell you. people say i'm taking it very well. i tell them all i'm still in denial. if you find me crying unexpectedly in the next while, please give me a pat on the back or perhaps a hug and move on. i'll be fine. i hope. but at least now i will never have to wait in emergency rooms. i will also be able to tell you how many grams of carbs practically anything has after a while. a small muffin for example has 15. i can also see now. it's wonderful being able to see, but a little worrysome as i started needing glasses around grade 7 so my glucose had been on the rise for quite some time. i'm also terrified of going low (low blood sugar). so terrified in fact that when my glucose level is normal i get worried. normal by the way is between 4 and 7 mmol/L. on monday morning mine was 37.2 which is WAY off the entire scale. i'm also not entirely sure where this is going, but who reads this anyway? me i suppose. who does read this? no one i imagine seeing as you can't search for blogs or anything. my i'm being bombarded by msn messages at the moment. i should also e mail brendan. haven't done that for a while. i haven't talked to him period for a while. perhaps i will go and do that now. wouldn't that be interesting if he somehow read this. well i suppose i shall leave you at this.